video of sammy snoring like a wookiee

every day on blogs and microblogs alike i read posts from my friends referring to their girlfriends in such manners as "my woman" or "the girl" or "my old lady" .....its something that is so common but i guess because i see it so frequently, every day, its making me really irritated and i just keep thinking "THEY HAVE NAMES"

if i had a boyfriend and i referred to him on a daily basis as "my boo"......would you (guys) get annoyed? well if i were referred to as "boo" i wouldnt mind because its the best word ever. however to me it seems the 3 previously mentioned names "my woman, the girl, my old lady" are almost derogatory. and at the same time, "my man" or "the boy" ...for some reason dont strike me as being as bad. is it because im a girl and i cant see the male point of view? or because i think that guys actually like being referred to as "my man" because it makes them feel strong

exactly two weeks to go till vacation time! berlin, im SO FUCKING OVER IT right now, cant wait to get home for a little while...away from all the bureaucracy bull caca. now i DO need to change my health insurance...and its mandatory that i add pregnancy coverage (mandatory for all women, even if youve had a hysterectomy apparently) and dental..which will double my insurance cost. i wish these people would make up their minds

and on top of that im super busy with work....preparing all my classes for their final exams, doing special seminars, substituting for other people and waitressing at the ambassadors on friday. definitely regretting taking these two substitutions and the waitressing job but i just need to put as much money in my bank as possible to impress the ausländerbeheader. and who knows if after all this, it will still be enough.

after talking to rick tonight im jealous of his easy going life he's been having in düsseldorf. *thinks of moving to düsseldorf* did i mention the weather right now sucks balls too? heres a nice video for you.

OH MY GODDDDDDDDD i just tried to change my health insurance so i could have the right kind for when i go back for my second visa appointment. and the guy told me it IS the right one, and the people at the visa office are just confused because of all the new health laws and the lady i saw didnt know what she was talking about. and i have to now bring a new more detailed letter with me, and possibly a girl from my health insurance company to defend that my policy is sufficient.

the ausländerbehörde sucks. it really does just depend on who you talk to at the office and what kind of day they are having. theres no way to know what health insurance is right or wrong, because everyones (freelancers that i know/work with) is different and everyone has been told different things by the visa office. its pure luck. IM SCARED. my lady was nice..but i have a feeling this time around if i bring a health insurance representative with me things are gonna get ugly.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

malachai represents germany. just replace "outlander" with "ausländer" and im linda hamilton. getting my butt kicked by children of the corn but hopefully i should be back to take revenge in T2

i love my new desktop




no work tomorrow!

And moving through a mirror clear
That hangs before her all the year,
Shadows of the world appear.

"I am half sick of shadows"

ok ive calmed down since my last post about not getting my visa so i can take the time to explain what happened in more detail now. i did in fact get rejected for my visa renewal. and i did in fact cry in front of all of the visa office workers at the very end..all of my stress, frustration, and defeat completely overwhelming me at that moment..... but, it didnt work. those germans are tough and no amount of girly tears would make them budge. i had insufficient health insurance, and they sent me away with a 2 month extension and instructions to get new (twice as expensive) insurance and bring back that paperwork on january 19th. and hopefully when i go back in january, everything else will be fine and i will be able to get my goddamn piece of paper in my passport. ass monkeys

i would also like to remind you that if you, or a friend of yours is dreaming about spending christmas and new years in this city, you should rent my room because it will be available (awesome fat kitty included) from december 7th- january 7th. you will rent my room....you will give me your money.....

heres the view from my window, with all the great fall colors. it gets dark at 4pm now. thats so depressing. and the way my cat snores really scares me


merlin is by far the best show, my favorite show ever, everything i could possible dream about in an escape from reality, and im so grateful to the bbc for creating such a masterpiece. and now i want to go back to cornwall and glastonbury even more...(i watched the entire first season right before i went the first time in july)

doing my "pre-reading" and studying for when i go back to school is harder than i imagined because now i am forced to develop firm stances on things that i could never decide upon. and im discovering new theories that just completely throw me for a loop and make me rethink everything. i spend all of my free time reading things that make my mind go in circles. its exciting and frustrating at the same time. i wonder if being a libra will be my defeat or my triumph

how much direct action to i need to be taking to get what i want in life, and how much will be done on its own?

im thinking a lot about my family and how i just cant wait to see them in 4 weeks. i cant believe it will have been almost a year and half since ive been gone. ive never gone that long without seeing my family. i mean, after a while you start to lose track of how much time actually goes by and it doesnt seem like that long. it really hasnt been that hard for me. but when i really think about it, it HAS been a fucking long time. im not even going to recognize my little sister. and i feel like everyone else will look pretty different too. and i wonder how i will look to them, if i will look older, or ..wiser mwahaha. anyways, i cant wait to see my baby boo

wow just watching this video for the first time and its exactly what i had imagined in my head whenever i listen to this song. that has never happened before!

i just found this attack attack parody video and then was thrust into a whole new magical world of "zanger bob"


gets good at about 2:30

i did not get my visa, and my job is over a week late paying me AGAIN. ready to kill

i managed to enjoy myself on halloween despite being plagued by fears of my visa office appointment. a bunch of friends came over all dressed up and we cooked a crap load of food, hot dogs, pizzas, pumpkin bread, pumpkin soup, brownies, cookies, pumpkin waffles...and made ourselves sick while watching drag me to hell, the exorcist, (i dont wanna be buried in a) pet semetary, and house of 1000 corpses. i couldnt get my stupid remote to work so we had to watch pet semetary and 1000 corpses in german. pretty entertaining actually

this picture of jadwiga is hilarious


and heres me with my mooninite


right now im getting all of my paperwork ready for tomorrow...d-day...in about 12 hours i will know the answer to the question thats been driving me insane for the past month. will i be allowed to stay in berlin, or will i have to go back to the US? stay tuned to find out

these are not dick enlargers

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