plug/ project update time:

SANTI SCHOOL PROJECT
the project was started to build a primary school in Ramche, Nepal in '07. now that the school is up and running we've begun a 2nd project to provide some much needed renovations to a neighboring school. we constantly have fundraisers going on and also have shirts available at our online shop..one designed specially by Kevin and Joey from Team Doom/The Black Axe. you can check out some videos on our site to see the progress being made, or if you're feeling awesome and artistic, donate a piece of your work to one of our latest art auctions (check the flier below for dates). if you dont live in nyc or baltimore, no prob we can reimburse you for the shipping. or just message me for more details. (ps, want to volunteer and teach some kids in the beautiful himalayas? you can do that with this project too!) and now here are your special links:

website: http://www.santischool.org/

online shop: http://santischool.bigcartel.com/

human animals are the worst kind of animal. we are slaves of our own device. and we have made every other living thing a slave under us as well.

crispin glover is the only one who is not complete failbait.

the weather is warm and everyones alive again, and now that its the weekend i finally have some time to bike-i just went out to the charlottenburg palace, one of my favorite hang out spots, to take some spring pictures...but what i got was this:

a party at charlie, clay, ashley and eli's house in 2004 OR the epitome of an american college party (feat. kegerator, a fight, fireworks in the bathroom)

this is my fucking new favorite song i cant stop watching this video and listening to it!! when i think of europe i think of alpine slides and shitty techno music so this video is perfect and it just gets me PUMPED for the summer. i wanna make a few road trips and hit some more of these up




heres an old one i did from 2007 in füssen but i think my new videos need to have techno music

bathroom update:

more pitchers and this time ill upload them directly since ill be sitting here for a while ;)

ps-just bought a train ticket for me and my bike to go visit rick in düsseldorf next month!!!!!!!!!!!

summer 2008 orlando visit


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nye at rick and alex's house 2005 overcome with excitement from watching the ball drop on tv...


me and jamie leaving my apartment last month when her and ben were here visiting


i think july 2007 at rick and alex's apartment, rick playing with his shitty old ipod shuffle necklace and me eating cookies probably

i cant wait to go back and sit on the rocky cliffs of tintagel and play lord of the rings on my blockflute, at the end of the summer when the sun is high and my shadow is short. and the only other sounds will be the crashing of the waves upon merlin's cave, and the wind's whispers of stories past. just me, the sun, the grass, the ocean, and the flowers. THAT IS SOME SEXY SHIT! is it too soon for me to be wishing it was august?

just updated flickr with a bunch of random ass old photos i found on my external. also some recent ones. too many to put on here. u must go straight 2 the source

http://www.flickr.com/photos/nilbog2021/

more old videos from '05

you came into the world, you were born into this life, wide eyed and unaware of the fate that awaited you
you took your first steps, excited just to be alive, curious of everything around you, feeling what it was like to breath for the first time
how could you have known that moments later your joy would vanish sooner than you could ever really even appreciate it. how could you have known that from that point on all you would know and feel would be cold hard concrete on your protruding bones, barbed wire ensnared in your mangled flesh, pangs of hunger, unbearable aches, dislocated joints, over and over and over again..
you had no idea that all you would hear from that point on would be "FASTER YOU PIECE OF SHIT, YOU THING."

and struggling to keep up the pace with his car, you felt the rope go a little tighter around your neck, until your body gave up completely, and you were only an object dragging behind, sliding on the rocky dirt roads, over broken glass, leaving trails of blood. at that moment, did you think back to when your life was new? did you think, "how did i get here? why did it come to this?" a million questions must have been running through your tired mind. and when he brought you to that tree and hung you from the lowest branch, you still looked out at him with loyal eyes, and with your body collapsing you managed a few more painful sighs. then finally you let go, knowing that this would be the most peaceful sleep youve ever had

and some days later your body fell to the ground, and you were just another piece of decaying meat. your muscles food for the insects, your bones rocks in the dirt. a rope knotted to a deflated, expressionless, piece of what you used to be. the rope, and your remains, now a part of that from which you came.

and the only answer you were never given for why you had to die was "youre not good enough"

i found old vids i took from '06 of 2 girls 1 cup/finger reactions

daniela and sal slow-mo




me alex and nicole (we all had already seen 2 girls 1 cup so we werent really puking so much here)

MO'NIQUE . the parkers was one of the best shows on tv back in the day. she has hairy legs?? even cooler. she also kinda scared the shit out of me in the "precious" movie. shes fucking great.



i really wanted to say "your FACE is foul" but courtney was a client of ours at my old job..so i tried to be a little more mature :) mo'nique i luv u

me and my brothers in daytona beach "cruising the strip" spring break '05

im watching a black bird outside my window try so hard to fly against the wind! the other birds flew off without him and a huge gust must have come because he is not moving forward at all, despite how hard he keeps flapping his wings. hes going sideways..sideways..ughhh! ok he made it. he just flew over my roof. but thats not why i wanted to write.



i am a woman. just not by your standards. ill fight and die alone before i wear your fucking CHAINS.